Hello again readers (if you exist), I am feeling slightly better now.
So, Friday I had a lunch date with Friend. The day started out ok, though I had a sore throat and was a little stuffy. Also had a cold sore trying to start, but I had meds for it so kept it at bay. Got showered and ready to go. My favorite bra broke which was a real bummer – those things are expensive! Managed to find something to wear that didn’t make me look too old and frumpy but not sleazy either. I’d had to get up early and take DH to work, so I was running on about 3 hours of sleep, but that’s plenty for me if I know I can take a nap later. As I was leaving the house, I realized DH had forgotten his lunch and his phone so grabbed those to take to him. Just then, 16 calls sounding horrible and said she’d thrown up at school and needed to be picked up. So, my hour’s headstart was dwindling away. I zipped over to the school went in and had them call for her to leave, then finally we left to take DH his stuff. Called him ahead of time to meet us at the door. Had 16 run it in to him, which felt like it took forever. I was getting more and more anxious. I had left 2 hours before the time I was to meet Friend and time was quickly running out. Finally, 16 came back out and I ran her home. She seemed well enough to take care of herself. Then I got a phone call. The elementary school said the girls’ bus wasn’t running and they would have to use a different bus to get 6 and 10 home but it would be late and they were concerned about 6 waiting so long. I took it that they really wanted me to pick up 6, so I relucantly agreed. I had already signed papers telling them to put 6 on a bus when strange things happened like getting out early etc. So, now I would have to leave immediately after lunch to get back to town to get 6 and 10 from school before 3:30. I should have told them to put her on the bus.. but anyway one more thing to stress over. It seemd like a lot was happening to make it difficult to meet Friend for lunch, but I was determined.
Finally I left town 45 minutes later than I’d wanted. All of my spare time was gone, I would just make it in time now. There are two ways to get to my home town that I know by heart, but only one had fast food restaurants and I needed a drink so I took that way. Wrong choice. I got the drink OK, and made the final turn toward my hometown and found a line of traffic. Seemed it was backed up following some big trucks with WIDE LOAD signs carrying some weird gigantic canisters. I was right by a side road, so I turned around and took a backroad hoping to find the one I knew was around there somewhere… I ended up back where I started. SIGH. I got back in line and waited, figuring they’d let us through… 20 minutes I sat there! I tried to text Friend to tell him I’d be late and discovered I had no service! That was enough for me, I turned the van around right there in the middle of the road, backing into a hayfield and went in search of the backroad. This time I went left instead of right and found the road. Finally back on the move, I was able to text Friend. He replied that it was OK and he was still at work and just to let him know when I was close. I did text once when I passed a landmark and he said OK, but when I got to the restaurant, he wasn’t there, so I texted that I was there. I went in and got a seat – apparently in the busiest and noisiest parts of the diner (though it was empty when I got there). I ordered a sweet tea and waited. I could not see the door from where I was, but a few times I heard the doo bell tingle as people came in, then I heard it again and saw the waitress’s face light up and smile – I knew it was him. Then he came into view. He was chatting with the waitress – he’s one of those types that’s friends with everyone. He looked AMAZING! OMG! I knew immediately that he hadn’t just thrown any old clothes on. I could tell he had chosen them carefully. He was wearing a black button down linen shirt and khaki slacks. His fingers were covered in bling as always and he had on a large gold horse pendant on a gold chain. He looks for all the world like he’s gay and always has. But he’s truly what they call a metrosexual – a true heterosexual who is incredibly vain and takes great care in his appearance and grooming. Anyway, he looked SO good. He had a gorgeous tan from laying on the beach for a week. My heart was fluttering as if I were that 16 yr old with a crush again. When he came over to sit down with me, I had to find something to say other than WOW! Actually I immediately got up and excused myself to go to the restroom. It had been a long drive afterall and I just knew my hair and face looked awful. When I got back, our table was suddenly surrounded by other people. So much for a quiet place for lunch.
Lunch was nice. The food was alright, but I can’t say I paid much attention to the food. I was mesmerised by his green eyes. They had always held that power over me, but sitting there as an adult who should have better control over such things,.. I was utterly helpless. In fact I simply could not hold his gaze. He’s look straight into my eyes and I would have to look away. I know I blushed through the entire meal. I cannot hide anything from him, but he was gracious and didn’t say or do anything to make me feel more uncomfortable. I actually ended up saying some things I wish I hadn’t, but it’s since been smoothed over. Basically it was stuff about the past. We’d already agreed in emails that we were putting that stuff behind us, but it was painfully obvious some of it was still in the front of my mind. At least I got it out of my system and it’s ok now. He even said a few things that made me thing a little differently and maybe see things from his point of view a little. All in all it was a great lunch and I had a wonderful time. I never even made a move for the check, figuring if he had the big 5 bedroom house and 3 new cars he could pay for lunch. I didn’t feel bad about that at all LOL. While he was paying the bill, I went outside. We had parked right by the door since there wasn’t many places to park anyway, so we didn’t even have a private place to say our goodbye. I seemed to keep my distance, almost keeping a whole vehicle between us. In fact I was surprised when he said to give him a hug cause he had to get back to work. I hugged him and it was held a little longer than a normal hug, and I whispered in his ear “it was good to see you”, and he smiled and said he couldn’t wait see me again, then we got into our vehicles and left to go our separate ways.
Unfortunately I didn’t get a chance to wander around town and day dream. I had to hurry back to my town to get 6 and 10 from school, but it was already 2:45. I couldn’t see how I’d get back in time to get them before 6 had a meltdown swearing Mommy wasn’t going to come get her. I started on my way and called the house phone to tell 16 to call the school. Both times it went straight to voice mail. Silly girl probably never even turned on the phone. I drove on, but knew I’d not make it, so I called DH at work to have him call the school. He called me back and said they had already put them in the queue to get on the bus and figured the note about being a car rider was wrong. They’d be getting on the bus any minute. Sigh. By then it was too late to turn around and go back to my home town… I guess I’m not supposed to go for a leisurely drive down my old backroads I grew up on. Anyway, I texted Friend and said “Thank you for lunch” you know since he paid and all.. He replied You’re welcome. I didn’t mind heading home now,.. I wanted to check emails and see if he’d said anything about our meeting.
When I checked mail, there wasn’t anything new from hime, so I wrote to him, knowing he’d still be at work.
Today just went by in such a blur. I wanted the whole world to go away so you and I could sit and talk about anything for as long as we wanted.
I couldn’t stop staring at you either. You looked AMAZING.
He replied thanking me for being so sweet and that I looked good too, but he couldn’t get me to make eye contact, but I was blushing and had a big smile on my face the whole time.. and he wished we’d sat in the back room since it’s more private and not so many old people sitting around us. (It was like old people central!)
The conversation continued and we decided next time, we’ll meet at the park by the river where we can sit and talk alone. I told him I could hold eye contact because it was just too intense. He said if he had that kind of power over me with people around, how was I going to deal with being alone with him… Yeah he’s a bigtime flirt. He also said he’s sorry he was such an ass all those years ago and wished he’d made different choices, but that he’d like to make those bad memories less memorable and make new memories if I’d give him the chance. swoon
He had to go by 5pm to go meet his family for dinner, (he’s very much into family ties and has dinner with his parents every week), but that he couldn’t wait to see me again and he loved me and hoped I had a good weekend.
Me too.
2 Comments
September 25, 2008 at 7:07 pm
where are you girlfriend?
the suspense is killing me
your reader(s) want to know more!!!
seriously…your blog has gotten me through many (MANY) a rough day and i appreciate it more than i can properly relay to you in a comment box.
i hope you’re doing well.
(off to back to school night now)
take care!!!
September 26, 2008 at 6:19 am
Wow, well thanks! I wondered if anyone was actually reading it. It’s a lot easier to write a blog about all this stuff since I made it anonymous. I’m glad you’re enjoying it. Hopefully it will continue to be interesting! LOL